I try to stay upbeat but it can be a test of faith at times. I am blessed in so many ways but I've had a hard life but who don't, right? It is great to be alive but it can be painful. I've found out I'm going to be a grandma at 44 in June. But why do I also find out right after that my sisters not doing good and loosing her fight with cancer. I'm already dealing with my boyfriend having it and now her. I'm giving my hope and faith that God will carry me thru this year and all I am facing.